Life Update

Balancing everything in life can be hard. I know this very well, and something else that I have noticed is that no matter how much you try you can never get it perfect. When you strive for that ultimate perfection of everything in life, you find yourself missing the fun and the memories of life. It makes things that are supposed to be fun or enjoyable a chore. I have had enough of this and have decided to get back to enjoying things I like to do instead of making it just another thing to cross off a to do list.

Something I really have been missing is my instagram account. I started my first account back when I was a junior in high school and really enjoyed doing it. After a while it became a chore to keep up with and decided to give it up. I went through this cycle of enjoying and then hating it and started my account over several times. The cycle stops today where I decide that I am no longer going to make it something that I have to do and bring it back to something I love to do.

The second thing is this blog. What went wrong with it was the fact that I was planning the death out of it which also made it a chore. It should be about expressing myself instead of being a requirement much like a school assignment. I love sharing about my day with everyone and if I feel like it other fun things as well. So that is starting up again and it will be fun not tiring.

So yeah! I’m back and I am happy about it!!!

Have a great day everyone! I love you all

Love, Kim ❤

 

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What’s swarming around in my head

So I’ve been away from this blogging thing for a while now because I made it into a chore instead of a way to express my feelings in a place that is outside myself. And it is for that very reason that I return to it tonight. So there’s something that is really bothering me tonight, and I figured I would blog about it as a way to try and get my thoughts out there.

So the thing that is bothering me tonight is something that really has been an issue in my life for, well most of my life. That issue is friendship. Friendship has always been something that has been difficult for me in my every day life. I can’t say that I don’t have any friends at all because I do, but its hard to tell just how much your friendship means to another person. At times it can really feel like they don’t seem to even care at all or don’t think of you at all. It is hard for me because I feel so attached to certain people that when they start to drift away a bit it can be hard for me to handle. It can be especially hard in my position, one in which I have moved away and am trying to come back and pick up with those relationships I had as if time had paused. The thing that is hard to deal with for me is the fact that when I have been away, people have continued on with their lives without me. This can lead to people meeting other people and wanting to spend time with them instead of you. You see these friends hanging out with other people instead of inviting you to do something, and that can really hurt. It makes me feel as if I am loosing the friends I cared so deeply about and that they have found someone to replace me. Suddenly, I am not the one the friend calls anymore to invite you to do things. When I am seeing all this happening, it makes me feel as if I was never as close to the person as I thought and I doubt whether I was even important to that person or those people in the first place. It leaves me tonight with a very alone feeling, and I am not sure who to call my best friends or friends or acquaintances anymore.  I never was the most popular person in school, and even now I don’t have that many friends, but when I see that I am losing even just one or two people it feels like I am slowly going to lose everyone, and it makes me feel as if I am not good enough or fun enough to be someone’s first choice as a friend. It makes me doubt my other friendships and it just overall really sucks. So anywho, that’s what is going on in my mind at the time and I hope that with prayer, God will provide to me some clarity for this issue and help to ease my mind of the doubts and worries I have. Good night everyone

Love, Kim ❤

Daily Update 5/15/17

Hello world,

So today was productive I guess. I ran a lot of errands with my mom and also cleaned out some boxes out of our garage. I am not really in the mood to really write a fully detailed post about it tonight, but I will leave you with this….go and look at my last post and it will describe the struggle I have had with managing my time.

I am writing this post right after finishing that and I am motivated to fit in the different things i love to do into my every day. I am determined to get back to relation with Christ first, but then also being a lot more organized when it comes to managing my time so I can fully put the proper time into this blog, my instagram account, and my other more creative endeavors. I love so many things, and I need to realize that they aren’t just tasks that need to be crossed off a list, but things I enjoy doing. Although I am going to get organized with these things, I am also going to take the time to fully emerse myself into the things I love and enjoy them in the moment while doing them. That is all. Thanks for bearing with me during my second rant of the night. I guess I just needed to get somethings off my chest. Now I feel better. Okay well goodnight everyone. Sleep well and have a great week!

Oh also! continue to pray for my friends and boyfriend that they stay safe overseas on their International Service Project trips!

Love, Kim ❤

Trying to Juggle Everything

So as you could tell, I didn’t post yesterday. Life always seems to get in the way of me doing the things I love to do. It is really something that I have been struggling with lately. All I have wanted to do is to be able to do all the things I love to do, but there are just so many interests I have, that is almost impossible. And it is only going to get worse once I start working next week. If it seems like I don’t have enough time now, how am I ever going to have time later. Of course some of this is my own doing because I definitely a procrastinator by nature, but even when I want to do things, other things such as doing errands or other various things for my family prohibit me from doing what I wish to get done. I know that in my life, this blog is a priority, my instagram is important, and of course a job is a must. But there’s the other things like working on my artistic abilities such as caligraphy, watercoloring, photography, writing, and even learning to play the guitar. Another thing that I have been really wanting to do is spending time with Christ. This is really something that I have put on the back burner, but it is really something that should be at the front of my priority list and I haven’t. Life is really a challenge, and while I knew that before, it wasn’t until I really saw that I have no time to do everything that I love to do, that I realized that life is about making choices. As much as that is frustrating to me, its the hard reality. Sure I am going to try and push myself to do everything I can, and maybe just a better organization and planning system will help that, but I need to also turn to God and have him help me through my life and determine what needs to be a priority in my life and what I am going to accept is just not feasible at the time. I will be working on this the next couple days before I start my new job next week and seeing just what I can do if I give it to God, and to really be motivated and organized instead of lazy and unmotivated. Anywho, that is my rant for the night.

Love, Kim  ❤

Daily Update 5/13/17

Hello everyone who is reading! lol. So my day today…eventful yet also uneventful. Busy is probably the better word to describe it since most of the things I did today were just errands which included driving my brother all over the place. Anywho rant over and on with my day….

So I woke up late today since my grandmother woke me up in the middle of the night and I had a hard time falling back to sleep. Of course this is partially my fault because I decided to sleep on the couch last night instead of sharing the bed with my mom. But it was not cool of her to at 1:40am to flip on the lights and start trying to find something she needed in the same room where I was sleeping. Long tangent over.

So I woke up, got ready and got to go have lunch with one of my really good friends who I haven’t seen in over a year. Sam is also a huge Disney fan and a lot of the pictures to come on my instagram feed in the next couple months are from her trips to both Disneyland Paris and Walt Disney world. She also has a sick photography instagram account that you should all go follow (@samsphotoworld ). We went to In n Out and despite not being thrilled with my food (which is rare for me since I absolutely love In n Out) we had a really good time catching up.

Following lunch, I had to go and do errands (woohoo! she shouts sarcastically) The errands on the list included taking my brother 25 minutes away to get his hair cut, and to the store to get items on the shortest and strangest shopping list I have seen in a while. So first the haircut. This errand was not so horrible since I go to the same lady that does my hair, but try to do that with my brother in the car and it is a whole different story. At least he finally cut the monster of Top Ramen hair he had and he can present himself as a presentable human for the first time in forever. (The reference to Frozen was completely unintentional).

Once that was tackled it was onto the second errand which was the grocery store. The list my grandma gave me was a follows: Chocolate milk, breakfast sausage, blueberries, and a bottle of Coke. A weird combo right. At least the list was not that long and we were able to get in and out of there quickly. Jeffrey was already starting to get on my nerves at that point. Lol.

Once home, it wasn’t too long until we went back out again. This time it wasn’t for errands but to go get dinner and see guardians of the galaxy 2. (I will be telling my opinions of it in a post tomorrow). It was good to get out of the house and do something fun since all I have been doing is either laying around or trying to get a job. Mind tangent time: I just remembered just now that I didn’t update yesterday so you guys didn’t know that I got a job at Oakley headquarters working in their lobby store!! Mind tangent over. So anywho… the movie was good and I enjoyed it.

Once we got home it was time to wind down. I did this by playing with my watercolor brush and trying to learn to do some handlettering and calligraphy. I am working on trying some new things that can integrate into my design work such as watercolor, handlettering, and film photography. (Another post sometime next week will detail my progress towards those goals).

And that brings us to now! I am sitting here in the dark, typing this post and trying to avoid a giant mosquito that somehow got into the house. If you don’t hear from me after tonight then you can safely assume that the mosquito has killed me in my sleep (lol jk or am I ?!?)

So goodnight everyone! I hope you all sleep well!

Ps. for those of you out there still reading this! I want you to keep some people in your prayers for me. A lot of my friends including my boyfriend Brett are currently out the country serving with our school out of the country. I ask that you pray for them and their teams that the lord bless them while they are there, that they can make an impact in the peoples lives that they meet, and to keep them save and healthy until they return.

Love,  Kim ❤

Daily Update 5/9/17

Hey everyone! So today  I didn’t do a whole lot, but at the same time a lot! I was able to pretty much just get the blog exactly how I want it to look and as of right now I can officially say: Welcome to the new Insidethemind! In case you didn’t notice, I have accompanied the change with a brand new logo. Of course the old logo was good too, and it still represents me as well, but I felt change would be a good thing so yeah!

So my day. I woke up late (noon late) and then I walked up to the lake starbucks and got the blog in order. I also got some things together for my instagram account so I can start that back up later this week.

I then went home and did some chore before returning to dance for the first time in almost 9 months. It was weird to be back because it felt as if I never left. However, once I started dancing, I felt the time away. My knees are killing me now and I am very sore everywhere.

Now I am winding down and going to bed soon because I have a job interview at Oakley tomorrow! I am so excited because I would love to work there. I really hope it goes well and I am asking that you pray that it does!

Anywho good night everyone!

Love, Kim ❤

Things to Come

So yes I did promise that I would have the newly designed blog up by the beginning of this week. Unfortunately, I have been very tired and buys and I have not had a chance to post anything or update things the way I wanted to. I am trying my very hardest to get this up the way that I want to. My hope is to have this blog up and running daily by friday at the latest. Maybe sooner! I will also be starting back up my instagram account which I also said I would have up Monday, by Friday of this week. Thanks for bearing with me during this time!

Thanks everyone!!

Love, Kim ❤

Daily Update/ New Directions

Hello World!

So this post is going to be divided into two parts. The first will be a life update and daily update. The second will be dedicated to exactly what direction my blog, instagram account, and YouTube accounts will be going in! So yeah lets get started.

So if you follow my account here on wordpress, you will have noticed that I have been absent for a few weeks now. There is reason for that. My life has been crazy busy lately trying to juggle different elements in my life. I have been finishing up finals and school and that has left me no time for free time or blogging or my other various accounts. Now that I am out for the summer, I will have a little more free time to enjoy doing the things  I love.

On a very positive note, I have successfully finished my first year of college. We ended on Wednesday, and I have been very busy getting moved back home and figuring out my summer. I have been working on trying to get a job. I actually just had a job interview this morning for a frozen yogurt place back home and I have a fourth interview for one of the jobs that I have previously mentioned on the 17th. I also have another job opportunity (remember the Starbucks interview I had?!?) if the frozen yogurt thing does not work out. It will be crazy trying to possibly juggle 2 jobs plus keeping up with my accounts, learning some new skills that will applicable to my future as a graphic designer, and enjoying times with friends, family, and my boyfriend, Brett.

So my day today has been very low key. I went to that interview today and besides that I haven’t done anything. I’ve mainly been planning out what the future of this blog and my instagram account will be. So with that we transition to the second part of this blog post…..the future of this account!

I have planned out what I want to include in the blog for at least the next week and keep up a lot of the things as weekly series. This account will continue to be an agglomeration of the things I love. I will be continuing the daily life updates because I have found that fun.

Since this account started out as a Disney blog,  I will keep some aspects of that. I will be doing a history series that goes into the history of Disneyland, attractions, lands, shows, ect. I recently did I research paper for my composition class, and that made me realize just how much I love that side of Disney. I will also be doing a weekly Disney news update. I may also be continuing my movie opinions as I go and see various new Disney movies.

I will also want to start a food friday in which I post some of my favorite recipes.

Photography is becoming a big thing for me so I will want to post about my different photos and my journey while figuring out how to do film photography.

Lastly, I will be doing a weekly update on my faith walk. My journey with Christ is one that is very important to me so I will be talking about that. I know that not everyone who reads this will be christian or agree with my christian views of things. If it bothers you, then just don’t read it. I know its not for everyone and I am not trying to convert people by posting about it. It is about what is inside my heart and mind: inside the mind of a dis geek which is me. So yeah.

I will be doing these different things regularly if I can, and also try to integrate fun suprises. It may be a post a day kind of things, or I could update it 4 times. So subscribe if you can so you don’t miss any of the new and exciting things (or at least they are fun and exciting to me lol)

Note: I will be not posting on Sunday, May 7th as I am going to try and reinvent the look and organization of the blog. I want to make this the best blog I can make it, and that takes some time to make it look great! So when you come back at the beginning of next week, it will have a new look, feel, and navigation (and maybe another few suprises!)

Have an amazing day everyone!

Love, Kim

Update 4/9/17

Hello World! I have been away trying to figure out my life. I have been trying to take on too much and have been under so much stress that I kind of fell apart. So yeah. I have been figuring out myself the last couple of days and now I am back. I have a good outlook and want to try my best to do everything I need to do and I really want to make this blog more exciting and have more content of all different kinds not just that of my boring life updates. So yeah! Starting tomorrow I will most definitely starting with some Disney stuff because that is what this blog was originally about. I will also be starting again to update my insidethemindofadisgeek instagram account with both Disney stuff and other fun stuff! My disney instagram account is being transitioned as well over to my entire life not just Disney. I felt as it being just Disney it was just too fake and wasn’t “me” so yeah. Have a great night everyone!

Love, Kim ❤

Life Update

Yes I have been away for awhile. And yes I have good reason. Sometimes life doesn’t go your way and being only human we can’t do anything about it. We have to accept what God throws our way and try our best to get through it. I have had a lot going on with me and it all got worse after my last blog update. So Wednesday went great which was good. I got called for not just one but 2 job interviews. Both of which are happening this Thursday so pray that they go well. Thursday however is when things began to go downhill. I am not going to go into my business completely because it really doesn’t matter. However the gist of it is that people were saying somethings behind me and my boyfriend’s back and it got both of us really worked up and I ended up having a full blown panic attack at 2:30 in the morning. On top of that, due to that, our relationship was tested, and we came within a thread of breaking up. However, once I stepped back and took a breath and accepted that I cannot do anything about the situation, things began to look up. Brett and I fixed things between us and we are now better than ever. I do have 2 job interviews lined up for this week and one of them is one that I didn’t ever apply for but was emailed about by the lady herself saying she wanted me for the position. I could actually get something in my field of graphic design and I really want this. I have a goal now of working towards a car and that is giving me the motivation to get into the job field and begin to earn my way in this world. Also something very exciting…I reached out to my friends at the podcast Guardians of the Disnerd Galaxy and it appears like I am going to be able to design them a logo for their show! Exciting stuff. So yeah. That’s my life right now. Life is life and while I would love to have all the time in the world to make this blog amazing with really cool stuff, I am not capable of doing so at this time. I only have 4 weeks left until I am out for the summer and the list of things I have to get done before that point is getting longer and longer. So yeah hopefully after that point I can get some more exciting stuff up on here besides my boring average life. Also by the way. Vlogging= not for me. I may try again this summer but the chances of that are slim. So yeah. Have a good night everyone!

Love, Kim ❤