Lets Have A Heart to Heart…..

So obviously I haven’t posted anything in a couple of days. There’s a reason for that. I have had a lot to deal with the last couple days and I’ve needed to take some time to figure myself out. I was going to try and start vlogging on monday and I actually finished the entire day and edited the footage into a video. I just couldn’t bring myself to post it. It really wasn’t something that was working for me. It wasn’t fun and it was more a chore and overall it was very uncomfortable for me to do. I was going to try to commit to it for the entire week, but more things came up in my life just yesterday that caused me to decide to give it up.

Something that I have been struggling with in my life is wanting to always be in control of things. And as most people know that isn’t possible to do. I would get frustrated with myself and others around me if class or homework or work got in the way of plans that I had in my head for wanting things to happen. I wanted to know that when I said lets have lunch at this time that it was definitely going to happen. When something didn’t go my way and lets say the person got called into work, I would blame that person or myself like I had something to do with it. This let to some pretty bad arguments yesterday with some of the most important people in my life.

This realization also brought me to another realization is that I have been putting certain things in my life above God. I have put things like Netflix or my relationship with my boyfriend above having a relationship with Christ. I have been lifting every thing around me up and putting God at a lower place. That just isn’t right. It came to me while writing in my prayer journal last night that maybe these two things are connected. Since I have put everything else in my life in higher priority, I haven’t turned to God and put him in control of these situations. If I had come to him for help, then maybe I wouldn’t have tried so hard to be in control of things. I have accepted that I cannot control other people’s emotions, other peoples schedules, my schedule, class, and anything else that may get in the way of me seeing or spending time with others. I have to accept that things will be out of my control and to not get so frustrated with it that I throw my phone against a wall (yes i did this yesterday when things didn’t go my way and so yeah I had a “temper-tantrum” and it was completely uncalled for and I am slightly embarrassed that I let myself get to that low point). I almost threw away some of the most important things in my life over something so petty as wanting to spend time with certain people and wanting them to bend to what I wanted. As I was laying awake last night I was feeling quite ashamed of myself and feeling sorry for myself that I may not have the best relationships with people and maybe I should give them up. Of course all these thoughts and feelings came from things that I shouldn’t worry about. If I judge my relationships on what other people thought of them or what I thought other people thought of them, then I probably wouldn’t have any friends or an amazing boyfriend, or anyone for that matter. My relationships are between me, the other person, and Christ. That’s it. And when I finally accepted that, I knew that things were going to be okay. I knew that through asking Christ to help me though this that he would give me the patience and the strength to let go control and follow Him in what he has planned for me, my life, my friendships, and my relationship with Brett.

We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ. 2 Corinthians 10:5.

Love, Kim

Daily Update 3/26/17

Hello people! Today was pretty uneventful, but I am going to share anyway, maybe throw in a rant somewhere, and end with an update on what is to come over the next week or so. So yeah.

So today can be summed up in just a couple words: Lack of Motivation. I had so much work to catch up on considering I didn’t do much while I was on break. My to do list was pretty long and lets just say that I didn’t get done everything that I wanted to. So yeah. I woke up really late (0r at least for me) at 10:30 which I really didn’t want to do, but that’s what happens when you decide to do late night bowling and TGI Friday’s adventures with your boyfriend lol.

So I got up, got ready, made my to do list, and then I wandered around the room of my apartment because I didn’t want to have to start doing my work. That lasted for about a half hour and then another distraction came through the door. Emily, one of my two roommates, came back from her break! So of course I had to talk with her for a good while. She came in dropped her stuff off and then went back out with friends, so once again I was faced with the reality that I had to get stuff done. Ugh!

Once I actually got working around 12:30, I actually managed to get a good chunk of my research paper done! If I haven’t already mentioned it in a previous update, I am doing my research paper on the history of Disneyland. You really think that with a topic like that I would have no problem wanting to sit down and write it all out. That is where you would be wrong because with me, if it is something I am being forced to do, such as an assignment, I am still not going to want to do it. That is really something that I struggle with on a daily basis. Lol.

After a good two hours, my good friend Courtney was able to come over and hang out for a bit. Although the plan was to work on homework, it turned into us watching Lost instead. I really need to stop with all the distractions (Netflix is probably the one that is the worst).

When dinner time rolled around, I met up with Brett at the only location that was open on campus since the dining was still on spring break hours. After a sub par Wok on dinner, it was back to my room for White Collar and a little bit of Bible reading. Most of the time that Bible reading can be such a chore (especially since I have to read it for Old Testament), however I really enjoyed it and got a lot out of it today. If any of you haven’t read the book of Job I would highly recommend it. I will be posting more about that either tonight or tomorrow when I get more reading done.

I met up with Brett for a little while around 8:30, we got Yogurtland on a spur of the moment decision, and just sat and talked for a while until we decided to go back. That is about it because as soon as we got back and I got settled back in my room, I sat down and started this post. So yeah that was my day.

Coming soon to this blog are some exciting things that I find exciting and I hope you do too whoever you are. So starting tomorrow, I am going to try something really new and outside my comfort zone: Vlogging. I am going to try it for a week and see how I like it. I don’t know how its going to go, but I am getting a good feeling about going forward with trying it. It will be a busy week so it is a good oportunity since a lot will be going on. I have had a hard time trying to express myself in some way, and this blog has really helped so I think blogging might too. So yeah. Also, I will be doing more than just my daily updates starting next week. I want to get some more Disney and Christian content up as well so stay tuned for that! Have a wonderful and magical night everyone! Toodles!

-Love, Kim

Daily Update 3/24/17

Hello World! I know I have been absent the last couple days (not that it matters that much since no one actually looks at my blog lol) and it has mainly because I have been a combination of busy and lazy. I have had a lot of homework that I didn’t realize that I was going to have over spring break, so I have been playing catch up on that. I still have a lot to do but at least now it is a little more manageable.

So today I really didn’t do much.  I woke up very tired because I really have not been sleeping well due to the couch. I am looking forward to going back to school tomorrow so I will be able to sleep in my own bed. Yay!

I had plans today to meet up with my friend Branden who I really haven’t seen since school started because schedules are crazy and that doesn’t help when we go to two different colleges. He was one of my best friends senior year, so it was good to catch up with him. We ran a few errands and then got pizza at the pizza press. Then it was back home.

When I got home from that I had two options, work on my 10 page research paper that is due on Tuesday or take a nap. I think that you can guess which one I chose. I was exhausted so a 30 minute nap turned into two hours. Due to that, I also lost all motivation to get any homework done. I was distracted and unmotivated. I was able to get about 2 pages done on my work, but Dexter took over.

Time for a bit of a rant. So I finished Dexter today, and I was not happy about the ending. Sorry if I spoil anything for anyone who is reading this and is currently watching the show (which I highly recommend because it is a great show and totally worth it), but what kind of ending is him faking his death and leaving behind a great girlfriend and a 6 year old son to start over as a lumberjack. They could have ended it so much better than that. They could have had Dexter meet up with Hannah and Harrison in Argentina and all could have been well, but they couldn’t just do that. I don’t know why but endings like that are just the worst. Maybe its just because I cannot stand ending a show knowing that there is no more to the story. I don’t like endings whether that is in real life or in fiction so that’s probably it. Okay I’m done now lol.

One Dexter was finished and I got a little of my homework stuff done, I needed to get a few things from Target, so my mom and I went to do that. I would have loved to go by myself, but since I wasn’t home for that long, my mom didn’t put me back on the car insurance due to the fact that I don’t have a car on campus. Anywho…I picked some things I needed up at Target since I am going back home tomorrow and my mom offered to get those things for me.

I got home after that, and my neighbors wanted to catch up. They have been like family to me ever since I was little and they don’t see me much anymore since I have been away at school. It was really nice seeing them, catching up, and meeting some of the family they have in town.

Now I have just been hanging out on the couch, watching some youtube (Chronicilly Jacque has been the vlog I have been watching lately. It is really interesting seeing how she lives with her different illnesses, but also just seeing another life and how she goes about her day. Idk maybe I just like seeing how other peoples lives are different from mine) and typing up this blog post.

I have been thinking a lot about how I want to proceed with this blog since I don’t have that many people who actually read it and it really is just a mishmash of a million different things. I like doing the daily updates and telling people about my life because I think it is interesting leaning about others, so I figured maybe other people out there would enjoy hearing about my life and the things I am interested in. For anyone who does actually follow this blog, I know that this was up until about a week ago, just for my Disney obsession, and I was thinking about maybe just going back to that. I am just unsure of things right now. I wish I had a lot more time to explore exactly what I want to do with this blog in the future and I’m hoping pretty soon I will get that chance. I was contimplating a few things. I was thinking maybe starting a blog with my roommate emily or even starting to do a daily blog like I have seen so many other people do. Maybe I will even change my inside the mind instagram account over to a public about my life kind of thing to go along with the blog.  I don’t know what to do.

I would really love to get some input into this, but I really don’t know if anyone actually cares to read this ( actually I do and they don’t because no one has actually visited the site since monday) Is what I am doing actually worth it? Is any of my social media actually worth it? These are the questions that have bee swirling through my mind lately.

Mind tangent….I stopped for a few minutes to give my dog, Blackjack his medicine because he has an ear infection and he just bit me. It really hurt and it kind of pissed me off and put me in a bad mood. Grrrr.

Anywho, I am going to put up an instagram post on my inside the mind account to ask you guys your opinion on things and direct you guys here.  That is it for tonight. Good night everybody.

Love, Kim

Beauty and The Beast Review

So like I promised, I am going to review Beauty and The Beast!!

The other night, I went with my boyfriend, Brett, to see Beauty and the Beast for our 6 month anniversay. Going into it, I was excited, but I wasn’t sure exactly what it was going to be like since I had heard so many mixed reactions towards it.

My overall opinion of it was that I really enjoyed it. If you put all the little critical things aside it was a pretty good movie. My only thing is that if they had taken more time instead of rushing a release they could have done a better job with it.

I felt at time that Disney could have done a better job with the effects. There were a lot of times when I could tell that the actors and actresses were behind a green screen in a studio. Most of the time this wouldn’t bug me, but the one scene where Belle runs to the top of the hill during her opening number was really hard to watch without seeing that she wasn’t actually outside. I felt this took away from the magic of the movie.

Additionally, there were several camera angles that made me uncomfortable and a little dizzy. Spinning the camera at the rate that they did with not having the camera in focus, hurt my eyes.

Despite the few cinematography errors, the movie itself was true to the original story. Emma Watson was really good in the part and I was overall satisfied with the film. I could say differently about Brett who nitpicked every little small detail that wasn’t right in his mind lol. I think I may give it an 8/10.

Anywho, hope you enjoyed my review. I know its not that much in depth, but it is the movie from the mind of me with my opinions.

-Love, Kim

Daily Update 3/21/17

Hello everyone! Today has been a good day…correction…an amazing day! It was long and I was tired but it was still amazing for several reasons.

So my day started out waking up early because my mom wanted me to go with her to do errands and to go shopping for clothes for me. I was not really in the mood for it because I didn’t sleep well the night before (Fold out couch beds are not comfortable and they squeak) We went but I didn’t last long and by 1pm we we were back home and I was able to take a nap.

I was awoken from my nap at around 2 with a phone call from my boyfriend, Brett, saying that he was on his way to my house. Today was our 6 month anniversary! We had plans for the evening and I excitedly got ready for that following hanging up the phone.

About 10 minutes before Brett arrived, I received another phone call. You guys remember how I was saying that I filled out some job applications yesterday? Well guess what?!? I was called by Starbucks for an interview tomorrow!!! So once again pray for me that things go smoothly with that and that I am able to show them that I will be good for the position.

Brett and I went to Islands for dinner. I had been craving their Hawaiian burger for a while now so that was a nice treat. Afterwards, we went and saw Beauty and the Beast. I am sure that you guys are eager to hear my opinions on it, considering everything that has been in the media about it. And you will be hearing about that, but it will be my breakdown of it in a separate blog post that I will be writing tomorrow because I am exhausted right now.

I want to be well rested for my interview tomorrow, so this is where I leave you. Updates to the blog are soon to  come and updates tomorrow on the interview and the rest of my day will also come tomorrow! Have a great night everyone!!

Love, Kim

Daily Update 3/20/17

Hey guys! Today was at least a little more exciting than yesterday, but not by much. My life is actually very predictable when it comes to what I do in my downtime. But anywho…thats another tangent.

I woke up this morning actually by accident. I rolled over on the couch, and I hit my arm hard on the side table that was next to me. I think it may bruise and it really hurt lol. I woke up got ready, and then I actually left the house! My friend Sara invited me to get coffee at Starbucks and catch up where I had iced caramel macchiatto one of the day.

After returning home, it was once again Dexter for a couple hours. Then about and hour before I went back out (yes, I Kim, left the house more than once. Shocker!!), I got a text from my boyfriend informing me that he wants to stay at home for a couple extra days to finish some things up, and since he is my ride back to campus, it means I am on the couch for an extra couple of days! yay she says sarcastically! (I guess I cannot complain that much because at least Brett is still coming tomorrow so we can still celebrate our 6 month anniversary).

So…I go to the magical store known at Target with my mom to pick up a couple things, to Selma’s (one of my favorite pizza/pasta places) to pick up dinner, then back home. I eat quickly because I went out once again to, you guessed it: Starbucks for the second caramel macchiatto of the day with my best friends Sarah and Branden.

I always love coming home because that means I get to spend time with Sarah aka my clone/best friend/ long lost sister/ disgeek and her boyfriend and my other best friend, Branden. We always have stuff to talk about and they both relate to me very well. Sarah and I, being the same person, always are on the same wave length on everything, so it is really great knowing that whatever I talk with her about, that she will back me up 100% and support me no matter what.

One of our conversations tonight though really made me feel life hard. She mentioned that one of the girls we went to high school with got married a couple weeks ago and that a lot of people we know are getting engaged, married, having children, moving out, and it was freaking us out knowing that we are at an age where things like that will happen. The both of us will both be turning 20 this year…we aren’t little kids anymore. We are in college, getting jobs, are in somewhat serious relationships, and it is mind blowing that we are actually adults.

Mind tangent from that rant: I actually didn’t just watch Dexter today, but I also applied for 2 jobs! I applied for Target and Starbucks for this summer. Pray for me that I actually will get a job this summer! Now…back to your regularly scheduled daily update.

Since I got home, I’ve been helping my mom do somethings with her computer, and now I am sitting on the couch/ my bed until Saturday watching Dexter and typing this update.

So I know that I had mentioned yesterday that I would have my park history series starting up today or tomorrow, but due to the fact that I left all my park history books at home and I want to do these posts the right way, the posts will have to wait until I can get my books on Wednesday. I will do a different series that I will start tomorrow about my faith. I am really excited about doing it because my faith has become a very important part of me the last couple months. So stay tuned for that and be patient because the Disney stuff will be coming soon.

Have a good night everyone! Will talk to you tomorrow

Love, Kim ❤

Daily Update 3/19/17

Hello everybody!

I made it home! It has finally sunk in that it is Spring Break! Although my break will be uneventful, it will still be a good time to relax and not think about school work for awhile!

So my day started out as it normally would: get up, get ready, make my to do list (something that helps to keep my mind organized throughout my day). Then Brett and I loaded up and headed home!

When I got home, I found that not much had changed. My brother, Jeffrey is still his unique self, the house was exactly the way it was left when I started break, and the rest of my family (my mom, and grandparents) were treating me as if I had never left.

Some habits, as I found out, also did not change. As soon as I was settled back in (on the couch I might add because I currently live there since my grandparents moved into my room back in October) we went to lunch at one of grandparent’s favorite places: The International House of Pancakes! That also hadn’t changed since the last time I was there lol: The same old semi okay tasting food.

The rest of my day included working on my family’s various electronic devices since they don’t do very well with technology, and once more, watching unhealthy amounts of Dexter. (Currently on season 7 episode 2!)

Sure my life may not seem that exciting from the last couple of days of blogs, but I hope you enjoy the quick daily updates as it gives you a glimpse into my life, into the everyday life and mind of a disgeek when she isn’t at Disney and thinking about Disney or the parks.

Speaking of the parks, I was going to start up today my series of blog posts on Disneyland history, but I ran out of time to do things, and it didnt’t happen. I was going to start with Pirates of the Caribbean considering yesterday was the 50th anniversary of the beloved attraction. I will attempt to maybe get that up sometime tomorrow if I am lucky if not on Tuesday. Once I get into it though, they will hopefully come every other day. I also have some other cool Disney and non Disney stuff planned for the blog besides these boring updates on my life lol.

Anywho…hope you enjoyed learning about my day, and keep coming back because there is going to be a lot more fun stuff coming up! Have a good night everyone!

Love, Kim ❤

Daily Update 3/18/17

Hello everyone!

So I am starting up a daily life update from the mind of me! So yeah! Anywho….

Today has been pretty uneventful. Since it is the beginning of spring break, both my roommates aren’t here. They both left yesterday, so I have had the apartment to myself. I only left the room once, to get lunch with my boyfriend, Brett. Besides that I have been lying in bed watching Dexter (my current Netflix addiction) and Youtube. I thought about maybe getting caught up on some of my classwork, but instead, I decided to just relax.

I get to go home tomorrow! I am kind of excited because it will be good to see everyone, but I know that after a few days with my family, I will be ready to come back to CBU.

That’s really it for today so yeah! I hope that you guys (whoever you are) enjoy reading my daily updates! I will be updating the site with other cool things such as Disneyland history updates, recipes, and other rants of the mind of Kim.

Love, Kim

PS. The featured image for this post is a picture I took about a month ago while wandering the campus with my fried Courtney. Photography=another part of the life of Kim

Life Update

The last couple month’s this blog and my instagram account have fallen to the end of my priority list. I love doing it but, I have been so busy and have so many other things on my mind to take the time to care about the blog and the instagram account. It has made me realize that there are more things in my life than just Disney and Disneyland, so I want to share all aspects of my life with you guys. And it starts here right now. I know that this blog up to this point has just been for Disney, but I am transitioning it over to everything. I am still a dis geek and this is a look inside my mind!

So, new introductions are in order! Hi, My name is Kim! Its nice to meet you. Disney has always been something that was important in my life, and it continues to be so. I have so many other interests and passions in my life besides Disney.

Six months ago, I started college at California Baptist University. Since that point I have made so many new friends, met my amazing boyfriend, and have grown so much in my love for Christ. So, that’s another important aspect of my life, is my realtionship with God. This too will be integrated into this account as well.

Here at college, I am a graphic design major. Yet another one of my loves in life. That part of me too, will be integrated in. The list goes on and on of things I am interested in and love. And this is my place to share it all with you. I am so beyond excited to welcome you guys inside my mind and I hope that you continue to follow the blog and be just as excited about my life as I am. And if not, then it doesn’t matter what you think because this is my life and I am going to live it doing what I love.

-Love, Kim ❤

Cars 3 Trailer

Yesterday, the trailer for Car’s 3 was released by Pixar. Before this point we really had no idea what the plot for Car’s 3 was going to be like, and even after this point there still is a lot of mystery behind it. We see some newer cars behind Lightning Mcqueen, and then he is hit and flips over and gets destroyed. With the mood set, it makes it seem like it may be a career ending injury for Mcqueen, but there is a vagueness that leaves us wondering. Then the phrase: From this moment everything will change.  I guess we will just have to see as more trailers and information are released leading up to the summer release. What are your thoughts on the trailer?

 

-Kim ❤